JEFF ALGE’S STORY
Here is a little more of my story . Use it on your site if you like.
I became convinced that C.O.B.U. was a cult in 96. In fact the then members themselves had been calling it a cult as did Stewart (very shrewd) .
Before then I believed it was the only place I could be truly faithful . I had lived in “Fellowship ” from 76 to about 84 and had been on my own without any contact with C.O.B.U. for 12 years .
During those 12 years I worked with my two brothers as a recording engineer in New York and LA making records in the music business. I worked with a lot of big stars and made Grammy Awarded and Platinum Records .
I always thought one day I would return to C.O.B.U and the Church would be flourishing and members would welcome me back. I had an idealized idea of how things would be if I returned . I finally got enough courage to call. No one seemed to care .
I sent faxes everyday for a month or so begging a brother to call me or write or anything. I was expecting them to be happy to hear from me and to reach out . Finally Stewart got a hold of a fax I had written and told Kevin Brown to call me . I went to NY from LA to visit my family .
While I was there I spent a couple weeks working with Kevin Brown at Olde Good Things while it was in its infancy. I had hoped that ” maybe I could help rebuild the Church and get it back on track.
Kevin had me set up a website for Olde Good Things and Stewart seemed interested in having me work with him in a Nagra rental business because after I left I became a very well known recording engineer in NY and LA ( Nagras are a special tape recorded used in film production that Stewart collects). After a couple of weeks I was asked to attend a meeting with Stewart and a group of brothers at the first ” Christian Fellowship Meeting” about rebuilding the Church and escaping the cult.
After I spoke to Stewart on the phone about some things that went on between myself and Kevin Brown . Kevin had said he didnt trust me . I told him ” what was there not to trust “?. I came on my own ticket and worked for nothing . I used my own money to pay for my needs and drove a truck for the business for about 2 weeks . I also did a ton of manual labor ( about 16 hours a day for 2 weeks ) . All the usual C.O.B.U. stuff. It was a gift to him and the rest .
I viewed Kevin as being ungrateful and manipulative . He never acted kindly toward me . The rest of the members were like zombies. Painfully unkind to one another . After that I returned home to LA. I had had enough .
I received what seemed like a hundred phone calls from the brothers who had been chosen to be in “The Christian Fellowship” badgering me to move in or return to Jesus once I got home. I just stopped answering them. I had been talking to my family the whole time.
My mom is a believer and she knew I needed to go through this . I just couldnt handle the unkindness and unrealness anymore. I did suffer a lot of guilt about not “Helping rebuild the Church” as Stewart had put it .
I began drinking and using drugs and fell into a deep depression which lasted a couple of years during which I gave up my career and moved to Jackson Hole Wyoming to live with my sister. I began to be a hopeless alchoholic and one morning decided I didnt want to continue living. I got a phone call from my sister and told her I was going to kill myself. She introduced me to a friend who got me into A.A.
I have been clean and sober for seven and a half years now . During that time I have studied Stewart and C.O.B.U. looking for answers to what happen to me. I found out about Stewart and his half wife relationships . I found I.R.S. statements that contradicted what I know to be fact .
I found a very troubling court document about an auto accident Gayle had in the islands and some insurance scam . I found a lot of solicitations for donations of aircraft mechanics time and services. I found the stories of Jim Enright who I lived with for a while , and much of the other info available on the web.
It all has lead me to believe what I already knew but didn’t want to except. The group is a naively deluded bunch of followers of a sick and deluded man .
Living in the Jackson Hole area I have a unique insight into this type of group. I live in an area that until recently was almost entirely Mormon.
While investigating C.O.B.U. I found a lot out about this group . Many of my neighbors are members. It is the largest cult in america . It is scary how they naively follow the “prophet Joseph Smith ” without even a shred of evidence to support his claims of having been delivered another testament to Jesus . I understand though. They believe they are the only true Church with a restored gospel . It all is strangely familiiar to me .
All of this said , I have found it very helpful to speak openly about my experience with C. O.B.U. If you think it would be helpful please use this e-mail on your website or forward it to others who you think might find it usefull.
You can also use and distribute my e-mail address .
I only hope you and I can get past all our anger at what has happened to us as a result of C.O.B.U. and invest our God given talents wisely and fruitfully. As for Stewart , He is going to get exactly what he deserves very soon
I do not think much can be done for current members until each member gets sick and tired of being sick and tired and used by Stewart . But once they leave having some resources available like a site with the stories of ex members is very valuable .
My hope for all ex and current COBUs is that we can find true peace and be free of the oppressive and unnecessary guilt and shame .
I believe Jesus is quoted as having said something like ” I did not come to condemn the world , but to save it “
Love to all , Jeff Alge
jta@tetontel.com
I had a nervous breakdown after leaving COBU at age 16 in 1977.Most of my hair fell out,I had temporary memory loss,I became severely depressed,with little will to live….For years afterwards I felt condemned and on my way to Hell.I had the idea(from COBU)that salvation had to be earned,and kept through works. Even now,I am tormented by frightening thoughts about being damned,committing the unpardonable sin,etc,and I truly believe it all started with the brainwashing I recieved in the cult!I came from a home where there was no religious beliefs,so I was a “blank Slate” when the COBU got ahold of me.I was spiritually starved,and ended up being fed all kinds of false doctrines and heresy! I would love to hear from former memebers,especially if they remember me(and even if they dont!) My E mail is Galgonedaft@aol.com My name back then was Alease Davis,I was a really shy ,thin girl,with long blonde hair.God Bless,Alease
Sorry,I MEANT to say,my name back then was Alease BRINK!
Hi Alease~!
Come join us at xcobu4Jesus and maybe ykou can find some old friends. WE all are still recovering in our lives from Cobu.Many have done well and some still are seeking answers to nagging questions.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/XCobu4Jesus
GBU~!
Ave
The worst thing that resulted from COBU involvement,was that it made me TERRIFIED to read the Bible.Every time I would try to read it,those verses that Stewart used to control us would “jump out at me!”Trying to read the Scriptures made me feel CONDEMNED.With my kids going back to high school and college this week,I have decided to really commit myself to studying God’s word.I will have time alone now,and I want to make up for lost years of avoiding the Word,out of irrational fears. It took me many years to really figure out that Stewart had taken Scriptures out of context,and twisted their meaning to serve his purposes.When I hear a minister quoting a verse,especially a frightening one,I check out the context.Many times they also read their own meanings into verses.Always remember,CONTEX IS SO IMPORTANT,when studying the Bible.Say a prayer for me,friends,that I can really learn Jesus Word.Thank you,Alease
Rom 8:1 ΒΆ [There is] therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
I hopw that helps you Alease. Jesus does love you and He’s not waiting to replace you. If they told you that in the COBU they LIED. God Bless!~
Thank you,Sunshine.After I had children of my own,I began to realize how I loved them unconditioally.They are each so precious and irreplaceable to me.Then,I began to ask myself…am I able to love more than Jesus can.Can I somehow love my children MORE than Jesus loves us?It seemed like e ridiculous question.For so many years,I had believed that we were just “throw away children” to God.Now I knew that it wasnt adding up anymore.Read the beautiful story of the Prodigal Son.The father stood outside,watching afar off,hoping for the son’s return.When the father saw him in the distance,he ran to him,and rejoiced.I have had a “prodigal son” and nothing could change my love for him,even when his heart is far from me.How much greater must God’s love be for us,his children?Please pray for Jonathan,my son.
Hi !
I just happened to google COBU and was surprised to find anything, no less so much history ! I was a non-resident for a few months @ 1976/77 in New Brunswick/Highland Park, NJ.
I met some very nice people during that time and am disheartened at what a negative turn COBU took. I drove some old vans to Phiadelphia and NYC and remember when they started the carpet cleaning. I was at the BIG MEETING when it was announced that they were going to Haiti. I am saddened that something that seemed so positive would become so negative !!!
Jeff
Rochester, NY
Hi Jeff~
It is a shame that it changed so much. I remember New Brunswick! I was in Staten Island from 4/75- 9/75 before moving to the Phili Center.
I had a good time during the earlier days, before Stewart gained total control.
The bible studies on Sat Nites in New Brunswick were cool. Remember the old JW that we all sat around witnessing back and forth to and he finally tossed his roll of paper with scratched verses down and quit and then got saved?
Witnessing in 75 was awesome…I loved it. I recall back in 75 in NB was Dave Rizetto center leader , Vinny DiPaola a skinny kid that dressed like Stewart, lol [many bros thought it cool to wear work uniforms and carry a mini Z in a belt pouch, lol .. and there was , hmmm.... I see faces, but names.. one kid in particular was a blonde curley haire kid that ...ahah - Roger Norman...started Bayonne~ then John Bevilaqua ran Staten Island, Barbara Walden's brother Bob, ran Jersey City...Jay Edelman was on SI.. I remember a Jeff Bernstein...beard mustache dirty blonde I think....Sharon Sullivan, Karen Stahara, Sue Kyle, Charlie Walsh, Charlie Edelman, DaveChestnut, Chico, Lee, Mary Dunn, ...some stayed in for a few more years and after they started the Carpet Cleaning which intially seemed a good idea, greed kicked in and cutting expenses took away Stewart's humanity [ if he ever had any] and then he surrounded himself with minions and had them run interference and cull out the easy to handle from those who had brains enough to stand up to them.. so they got rid of anyone that didnt provide gain for them…
I was lucky . I got out before it went Borg…Many nice people were there and many of them have left and still serve Jesus in other fields , even as pastors and evangelists!
You are welcome to join any of the online former member groups.There are several . I have xcobu4Jesus on yahoo groups. Theres also xcobuon yahoo too. and more..
Keep in touch~
GBU~!
Ave
My older Brother, Dave Craig, is still in the COBU, and has been in and out of it since the late 70’s. The typical member, he has given up a good job, a wife, a child, etc. to be part of the COBU. As for myself, I attended some meetings of the COBU back in 1975 in Pittsburgh. When I got out of the Army back in 1980, I actually moved into a COBU Fellowship in Pittsburgh (Squirrel Hill). I saw many people from colleges in Pittsburgh give up their education to join. Most of them eventually quit the COBU at some point and went on with their lives. I quit after my last stint with the COBU in Baltimore, MD back in 1983. They had a fellowship house on Maryland Ave. I guess those of us who quit, most of us, left because we wanted to grow up and move out of never never land. Yes, terrible, we wanted to have a career and family. Marriage, of course, in the COBU was impossible. Nobody met Stewart’s standards for marriage. Those who did get married left the church, got married, then returned.
If you would like to find out more about my experiences in the COBU you can email me at ga_craig@yahoo.com or by phone at 717-203-1849.
God Bless, (Get Smart Get Saved…LOL) Gary